Wishing Time Would Stand Still in Xue's World

Today Xue turns 19 months old. He is getting so big and I am missing it. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. It feels terrible. I am ready to GO!

In the meantime, I am preparing another box to send his way, working on getting his room ready and praying without ceasing for him. Here is another picture of our baby boy. We received this one in July. I would love an update on him from China, but so far.....nothing.

P.S. he has a clubbed foot. 

Excitement

I am feeling very excited this week as we have made the decision to share the news of Xue with our friends, family and anyone else we can think of! We have been holding this news close for over two months now and my heart is feeling ready to share. Being that I have been dreaming of the day when I get to announce our news for over three years now, I have been spending probably way to much time thinking of exactly how I want to do it. I have bounced ideas off of my sister and come up with entirely too many different scenarios. But, I am excited and I want to do it right.....you know. I want to have my moment! I want Xue to have his moment. That moment when the excited parents announce that they are having a baby, well it is the same thing. I want Xue to be able to look back on this time in our lives and be able to feel the excitment through my words that I type and the pictures that I post.

This week I have been doing our online parent training that we have to do before we can travel to meet Xue. I have enjoyed it very much and have learned a lot. It is a lot of information to take in and process. But, I am happy to do it. The more I can learn about parenting my son and how to put myself in his little shoes, the better. For all of us.

I have also had fun hearing and dreaming about our baby shower that is finally scheduled! Again, these are dreams that I have not allowed my brain to even think about for so long and now I am allowing my heart the freedom to go there and it is so exciting! My Mom and sisters are great planners and are cooking up something special for my family and I next month. They are having to learn about Chinese culture in the process which is great! They are trying to include as much of it as possible in the shower and I think that is awesome.

We mailed Xue another box a few weeks back! It had lots and lots of food in it. I hope that he likes it! We also included a red book that hopefully the orphanage director will fill out for us. It includes about 80 questions about Xue for her/him to answer and then give back to us once we go to China. That would be incredible to have a book like this for him. My Mom also mailed him a box with food, toys, some gifts for the nannies and clothes. I hope that he is receiving our boxes, we have no way of knowing but I am trusting that he is.

We are still waiting on our LOA. Oh how I hope it comes VERY SOON!